It’s Monday night 22:00, I’m tired but not because I worked long hours instead because I didn’t do anything productive. In fact it has been like this for more than a month, the reason I’m having trouble accepting it is that in the past I’ve been capable of focusing for 10s of hours straight with no break. It’s true that I’m older now but it should only affect my physical fitness and stamina.
So I’d like to know why? If I can figure this out and manage to earn back my productivity, it’ll be a big step ahead.
So I wonder what’s wrong with me? I’m not all unproductive though, I listen to audiobooks, that’s right, I’m too lazy to read anything! I tend to listen to deep conversation podcasts and ponder about almost everything, the past events in my life which lead me here, the current affairs and my future plans, hopes and dreams. I’m getting close to the end of my doctoral studies and now I’m conflicted with deciding on how to start the next chapter of my life. Should I do a postdoc? or work in a company? a startup? or one of the big four? a bank? or become a freelance? or a digital nomad as they say, which is the best?
[three days later]
One of the most effective ways of achieving more is by having external forces pushing you to accomplish more, I feel this whenever I have meeting with my advisor. The day before I am full of energy and I make the most efficient planning so that I can obtain results that will impress her, and most of the times it works. If I were to keep the same pace I would make wonders in a very short time. Now it’s actually Friday evening, I feel better, because past two days I have been quite productive, still I need to find the right balance and get up to speed with all my projects but for now I think I’m in the right direction.