Every once in a while I get very emotional about myself, who I am and what i wish to become. Latest episode occurred when watching “For all mankind” I just started to scream/cry and couldn’t stop for some time. At these moments I become a jerk to myself and blame myself for not having accomplished much more and not pursuing something extraordinary. It’s a valid point and I like this feeling in a sense it proves to me that I’m not dead inside and all hope is not lost. On the other hand I’m being unfair to myself and my past achievements. Even though I wish to have done more I’m already an accomplished person that many wish they were in my shoes. High standards you know.